No pretense!
Im fasting today. It’s something that iv only done one other time during my 4 years as a born again Christian (im doing terrible) because let me tell u, I love food. I enjoy eating and just the smell of something nice makes my mouth water. I eat routinely without even a thot to it. But I decided to do this because sometimes God just breaks through for you in the oddest of circumstances and most of the times it happens when you offer up a sacrifice and really surrender to him. His word says that there are some things you pray about and there are somethings you pray and fast about. So I decided to show my act of sacrifice by giving up something I love. And why lie? It is a struggle. Everyone is eating in the office. The smell of pilau is all over. Then somehow Heartbeat decides to show up and surprise me for lunch…Yaani! But if you are in my situation id ask you to hold on because when temptation sorrounds you, believe me, something is about to happen. I also know it from personal experience. The last time I did this, a friend of mine gave his life to Christ and I experienced God in a miraculous way. I also experienced a closeness to God like I never had before. Id give up anything to feel that way again. I was conversing to him like he was there, I was walking with him and basking in his presence. It was totally awesome. So today morning, I poured out my heart to him. I told him that I was doing this because I had needs. Needs that I needed breakthroughs for. I asked him to come through for me like he always had. But I also let him know that my deepest desire, my longing, my hearts aching was to be intimate with him. To know him today in a special way.
Iv taken you for your word Lord. Iv laid myself bare. Iv stripped off my pride and asked. (John 16:24) So Lord, I pray that you show yourself strong.
